If ignorance is bliss why aren't more people happy

Falling apart

So it seems like everything is falling apart.

I just don’t know what to do with my life anymore and I … if it wasn’t for baby boy … well you know the rest.  I’m not sure what’s happening to me and I’m helpless to stop it.  I don’t care for Josh anymore … I think that was the start of it and I swore, I SWORE I wouldn’t lose friends over it but … they are slipping away and I hate it, I just hate it!  One of the worst is my good friend - for the sake of anonymity I’m going to call her Susan.  We used to be a lot closer but she’s been very, very busy and she has a boyfriend so that takes up a lot of her time.  She’s always been friends with people I refuse to associate with which of course upsets me and it’s not like I just don’t want to associate with them it’s that they launched an “anti-me” campaign and one of the girls who stopped talking to me still baffles me to this day that she won’t have anything to do with me and that’s the person that “Susan” hangs out with the most.  Now these Groban tickets have gone on sale and I couldn’t give a rat’s ass but now Susan is going - and I wouldn’t care about that either if she weren’t going with this “person” that I can’t understand.  I think I’m just going to have to let the friendship go I guess which … really hurts inside.  Even if I were to buy tickets to see the ass when he comes around in concert I just know that Susan wouldn’t go with me - but you can bet your ass she’d go with the traitor.  I have been feeling really alone these days.  I’m not online as much because there isn’t anything to look for or people to chat with so I just wander around looking for something to do.  There’s plenty of housework that’s for sure. 

Well I’m sorry to whine … just feeling a little weak.

I think I’m over it …

Finally!!!  It’s been years in the making but I blame him - he’s the one who screwed me out of my life, time with my family, my money!!  Sure, I let him - I had nothing else … my life was shit, my funds were shit … so what did this ass do?  Spent it on a man who no more cares about me than he cares about the big dump he left in the toilet earlier then flushed away.  Sad and pathetic - yep that’s me … but I think I’m finally over him.  Finally over all the curiosity, the concern, the fantasies … Josh Groban and I are through.  I don’t give a flying fuck that his CD comes out next month, don’t give a rat’s ass if he’s coming to town.  Don’t care who or what he’s fucking … and last but not least, don’t care one iota about these fans that are so-called “die hard” or “TRUE fans” because some of these broads - and I use that term loosely - are pure and utter psychotic.  And I was that way too when I lived and breathed Josh Groban.  If I had all the money I’ve spent on concerts, travel, CDs, pictures, cameras, phone calls, charity items, making calendars … all of it in one huge pile in front of me right now I’d probably be able to afford to buy a house … my face is red and I hang my head in shame right now for all the time, energy, emotion, and money I’ve spent over that man and his rotten fans.  Some of them would go so far as to get someone else fired from their job and cause them undue (well maybe it wasn’t ‘undue’ because that woman is STILL asking for it) anxiety.  There are all kinds of fucking NUTJOBS in this world and I would have to say that 80% of them belong to his fan club. 

Well … I have dealt with my waning feelings now for some two years while waiting for that lying ass to finish his CD - checking his tweets while he spent his time going to parties, socializing, networking, and getting laid and anguished over when this damned thing was going to be finished so I could continue obsessing and gratefully he took his sweet fucking time because it gave me a chance to step back; to see what had become of me, to see how truly riotous some of his fans are and Jesus Christ this man can do NO wrong in these people’s eyes - it’s nauseating!  And I can’t say that Josh was never a “do gooder” in my eyes but he sure was the sun and the moon - to me he was hotter than the hottest … his voice richer than the richest … and funny, witty, clever, intelligent.  Now he’s just a fool.  He sold himself to some management company that I don’t believe David Foster is involved with and he’s quickly slipped into obscurity.  His fan club told the fans that we need to sell Josh - excuse me?  He sells out - goes underground spending all the money that we, his fans gave him willingly and does a belly flop into ambiguity and WE have to transform him into the Phoenix bird?  Rise Josh, rise from the ashes of the notoriety you had - the prestige that we gave you - you know, the one you burned to the ground while you were out joyriding?  Pffft … he’s a namedropper, he’s moved to NYC, he’s a superstar - he’s a legend in his own mind.  It’s sickening that he re-tweets his “famous” friends and yes, those entranced fans are completely and utterly impressed … not buying it Josh.  You lost what you had and to recoup it is going to be deadly hard work.  I - I’m sorry to say that I’m not even interested in listening to the rest of your new CD because the first song kind of sucked donkey balls.  What’s with the falsetto?  Trying to get away from your baritone roots?  You know, those notes and ranges that made you what you are?  You’re not Justin Timberlake buddy and you never will be.  Build a bridge and … well you know the rest.  Why couldn’t you have just stayed true to us, your fans.  The REAL ones who loved you for those strong and rich baritone notes … those cheesy love songs, the ones in Italian and Spanish … if you’ve discarded all that for Foldsesque songs with simple melodies then I’m gone - far gone.  I’d rather listen to this awful singer my boss likes and his voice grates on my nerves like nails on a chalkboard. 

Right now I’m kinda feeling like a jilted lover.  I foolishly gave myself to you and you’re throwing it all away and this comment comes without even having heard but one song.  As it stands right now I’m NOT going to renew membership in FOJG - that place has turned into a barn full of bahhhing sheep; they follow you around wherever you go ooohing and ahhhing and gushing over every little morsel - it’s loathsome and repulsive.  You can’t give an honest opinion without someone shaking their finger at you and/or trying to make you feel like you’ve just committed a most heinous crime - one woman even was so bold as to tell me proudly she was a PSYCHOLOGIST and that she has determined that I’M nuts … ME?!  I’M NUTS?  What the fuck are you doing there lady?  It’s a FAN CLUB for fuck’s sake - you’re as nuts as any of them.  Fuck YOU and the bitch you rode in here on douchebag.  If I could set fire to the place and watch it burn to the ground I would just to see them stand in horror and wonder where the hell they were going to go now.  Oh no!  Josh’s “house” isn’t there anymore!  Whatever shall I do?  Fuck off and go see what your rotten children are up to!  How about get a job?  A life?  They HONESTLY think that you - the great Josh Groban - care about them.  Oh yeah, you say you do but you don’t know them.  You don’t know what they suffer through every single day so they can scrape up some bucks and buy a fucking leather wallet from your WB store for $75 so they can take it out proudly to pay for something and have someone ask about you.  Yeah, I know this because I’ve done the same thing.  I put you on my phone, my walls, my car … I was a walking, talking, eating, breathing street-team … then your fucking mod asked me to “re-introduce” you to new fans.  HAHAHAHAHHAA!  That’s your PR department’s job buddy.  They get paid to promote you, I don’t.  I’ve promoted you for six years only to be shit on and spit on.  I think there for a while I was more famous on your fan club message board than you were … until some snarky bitch took something personal that I said (not even to her) and got her friends after me and they delighted in pushing me out of the picture.  Oh yeah, she’s the TRUE fan … she spends her whole goddamned day trolling the Internet for everything and anything Josh then posts it and gets worshipped by the sheep.  Me?  I spend hundreds of dollars getting HUGE pics from some bitch who was also giving them to said snarky bitch probably making double what those fucking pictures were even worth bilking me out of money I shouldn’t have spent (again my own fault) but when I posted them I was accused of getting them from the bitch’s site - which by the way was created to cheat another loyal fan out of the “exultation” of being exclusive with photographs.  It was such a pity - and even more pathetic that I BOUGHT pics from a scalper and tried to get some of the appreciation I had before back … I could kick myself for that but hey, live and learn.

So Mr. G … I guess I’ve just had it.  You were there when I needed you - not that I don’t need you now because I do; nothing’s really changed in my life that I don’t need SOMETHING to help me through it … some folks have wine, some xanax … me?  I had you.  But you’re not there for me and when you are you’re dark and gloomy - not to mention falsetto.  You took a gift from God and sold out.  Michael Buble is doing very well for himself you know.  He’s got songs on pop radio - and I even LIKE one of them!  The vids are clever and cute and guess what else?  THEY ARE PLAYED ON VH1 AND MTV!!!  How many of yours were?  I guess that’s our fault too, the fans.  So how much DO those PR people of yours get paid?  Because even if it’s $5 a week it’s too much. 

Well if you’re reading this and you’re a Josh fan - don’t bother ripping me to shreds because I don’t care anymore like I used to.  I’ve moved on.  I’m too old to play in the sandbox with babies and I don’t care to put my family at risk by pissing off one of the pack.  I’m just one person stating my opinion and if you don’t like it then fuck off.  I’m not on this earth to please you.  But of course if I have hurt your feelings then I am sorry - I’m bitter and I’m through.

Very truly yours ….

Oh and I just want to mention one more thing - it irritates me that I can’t change my font or font color on here … ANNOYANCE!

Also I do want to say that I’ve met countless REAL friends on that board and I hope to never lose them.  Some of the fans don’t moo or bahh but even if they are good friends they still insist he’s a god and I hate that.  Okay I think I’m done.

It’s truly pitiful

Josh Groban’s new CD cover … it’s truly awful.  I posted this on his message board … boy I can’t wait until a certain someone and her lemmings come out swinging because I know they will ….

This is an album cover?

I’m really sorry … I just don’t get it. It’s not even an attractive picture of him; he looks like he’s just tasted something awful and that dishrag he’s got around his neck is tacky. I know that I’m going to catch hell for this but

a. whoever took the pic ….
b. whoever dressed him like that ….
c. whoever “styled” his hair - if you can call that ‘styling’ ….
d. and whoever picked that shot out of all the others should be smacked.

I’m not trying to be disrespectful - I’m just trying to express my bewilderment over the somewhat cheap and tasteless look of this cover. I always thought that the older Josh got the more handsome he would become and I think I was wrong. I haven’t seen one pic recently that set me on fire. I am starting to think that I’m just over it … I’m over waiting, I’m over people bashing other people because they think he can do no wrong, I’m over people thinking that not having the same opinion as they do makes them and idiot, I’m over paying money for expressing my feelings on a FAN SITE and getting told I’m psychotic, jealous and stupid.

Well for those of you who like it; I’m glad for you. For those of you who are of the same mind then I can’t speak for you but I’m sure not going to embarrass myself by shoving this cover in people’s faces and telling them this this singer is not only the best singer in the world but the most handsome man I’ve ever seen like I used to.

And YES I will reserve judgment of the CD until it comes out in its entirety. But if Josh’s idea of “something completely different” is anything like the first song we’ve heard in its entirety or that Mumford song (and yes I know it was poignant - I’m not disputing that) then I certainly won’t be spreading it around like I did with the first three. Many years ago when we were waiting for Awake to come out we saw pics of him that made us slide off our chairs … now he just looks emaciated and way over-dressed. WB gave us little vids of him singing 30-40 seconds of the new songs and before I’d heard more than half a minute of these songs I was pacing frantically waiting for it to make its final appearance. I had already known that L’Ultima Notte was going to be one of my favs - and it is! It STILL is …

I think - and I could be wrong but I’m fairly certain that I’m not - that WB and maybe management itself is probably reading these comments and getting views of all sides and that’s good. So if you’re listening I just want to say that this photographer did NOT cast Josh in a very flattering light; no pun intended but the cover is quite ill-lighted so calling an album Illuminations and making the singer on the cover so dark you can hardly see him seems just a tad ironic. Then when you CAN see him he looks gaunt and like he’s wearing makeup. He’s got a rather odd look on his face … I would think with a title of ‘Illuminations’ it would be bright and seem almost bright and cheery ….


il·lu·mi·na·tion

noun
1. an act or instance of illuminating.
2. the fact or condition of being illuminated.
3. a decoration of lights, usually colored lights.
4. Sometimes, illuminations. an entertainment, display, or celebration using lights as a major feature or decoration.
5. intellectual or spiritual enlightenment.
6. Also called illuminance, intensity of illumination. Optics . the intensity of light falling at a given place on a lighted surface; the luminous flux incident per unit area, expressed in lumens per unit of area.
7. a supply of light: a source of illumination.
8. decoration of a manuscript or book with a painted design in color, gold, etc.
9.a design used in such decoration.

So if there’s something I’m missing in my view of how I thought the album was going to be presented then I humbly apologize for such a windy manifesto but management if you are looking for feedback then I humbly submit as such.

He’s so handsome in (almost) every photo I’ve seen of him that to see these breaks my heart.

Do widzenia …

Here we go! 

The pic is so awful that the very first thing I thought when I saw it was HE’S COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET ….

the it crowd - second thought

flustercuck:

what will never work and what they will never be able to adapt for american tv is that “reality” thing of the UK shows. shows like the office, it crowd, extras, etc will never ever be good if produced in the US. 

in british tv it looks like comedy. in US tv it will and does look like a cheap production.

Ya got that right … Brits have a unique way of presenting comedy but unfortunately though Yanks think it’s funny they aren’t as funny … Brit humour rawks.